Once Upon A Time
When I was alone,
All I needed was your love and your kindness
When things seemed to only worsen
You let me fall to the ground
Like when a star dies after it falls from the sky
Except I broke
You abandoned me
I didn’t want this
It’s hard
I lay still…
These moments are frigid
I’m tired of chasing after your attention
The past
I want it gone
The sun has finally set onto one of the darkest nights
I’m not bound anymore to this life
So I will self-destruct
I have made up my mind
I avoid the mirror’s glare
I have taken a deep breath…
Killing the lights
Drawing the blinds
I am in the dark
Candles twinkle ablaze
As I lay in a pool of gasoline
I can no longer breathe anymore…
This time I am taking it away
Closing my tired eyes
The gravity of this weighs heavy
It is a sad day when you realise that you have lost yourself
Candle flame sparks
The room goes up in flames
You rush in
Gazing hopelessly into my eyes as the fire consumes me
It doesn’t hurt
Nothing can compare to the pain you have put me through
The fire burns out
I am feeling raw
Because this isn’t what I want
Better to give it up now
It can no longer be how it once was
Wonder where it began…
My heart is breaking
Not like you really care
I was born to sorrow
I hate inside
Time to let out what I have inside
Hope you have a frozen a memory of me from a time when…
I was your Prince, your boy next door
Because now I am no longer that same kid
I have played my part well
I have had a vision
I’ll move to Paris
Fall into a cocaine addiction
Forget my mother
Forget my father
Still miss my brother
I think I should give up
Because I can no longer hold out
Weight of the world rains heavy
Why does it even matter?
Live a fast and die even faster
I am capable of anything
Miss my parents
But why?
They wouldn’t even notice for years if death came for me today
Letting go of love
Throwing it all away
Because of a broken heart ravaged by frostbite
There is pleasure in tragedy
Because you think you can save me
But all of the faces look the same
My mind is finished with this
Each cut hurts less and less
Each sound sounds more distant than ever
I am not going to stay
You have nothing to worry about
Change is good, and I am on my way out
My soul has been ripped away
Because I gave into the truth
I can no longer take this
You are running out of time
Please stop
Leave me in this brightly lit room
The lights swaying over me doesn’t bother me
It’s what you wanted
You can now see that I bleed
That I have bled
There is no going back
I was pushed
Now this is a permanent solution
Can’t remember where this all began
But it was nice to have met you.
Just walk away…
–Leo Ferreira
Wednesday 18th December 2013 19:00
Updated Saturday 02nd May 2020 20:50
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